- March 29th, 2010
I often feel like people don't take my degree in environmental studies seriously and it's starting to get really frustrating. I studied for 4 years to get that degree. I know it doesn't make me a genius, but it means I know what I'm taking about, even if I don't always articulate myself well or if I'm able to bust out statistics I wish I could. Also, environment and politics can be a sticky topic and I don't want to push my beliefs on anyone else, but when it comes to things that are real, and not just ideologies I know what I'm talking about...and if I don't, I wont pretend I do. Like I said, I'm not an expert, but I'm not an idiot that doesn't know more than how to hug a tree.
Sometimes I really just want to be left alone. You know, I never start arguments with people or push my morals on anyone, but somehow, caring about the environment and being a vegetarian makes people want to be assholes to you, even when you don't say a goddamn word about their lifestyle.
I could tell you that the chicken whose eggs you eat was probably deformed from being crammed into a cage and its skin growing around the bars, had it's beak chopped off, and was fed chemicals that are most definitely being transferred into your body. I could tell you that there's no such thing as humane veal, and that they chain calves down into a box and probably don't ever walk before they are slaughtered. I could tell you that sows aren't even able to turn around in the pens they are kept in. That unwanted male "layer" chicks are literally thrown into the garbage to die from starvation or suffocation. That some livestock, on top of the antibiotics and hormones they are fed, are also fed arsenic and cardboard. That most vegetables are GMO. That our water is full of antibiotics and chemicals and hormones from drugs that we piss into the sewer systems. That the oceans are going straight to hell from overfishing, pollution, and general destruction. That they destroy whole mountains, literally blow up whole mountains, to mine for coal. That your body, espeically in the PNW is laden with polychlorinated biphenyl and polybrominated diphenyl ether, flame retardants, and you probably never even had a chance to be free of them because they were in your mothers' breast milk. That declawing your cat is a selfish thing to do. That employees in factory farms and slaughter houses often abuse the animals before they are slughtered (and some in SICK, SICK ways). That there are no regulations on poultry slaughter. That it's very likely that you've eaten meat that's had literal shit on it. That non-organic cotton is one of the largest sources of chemicals/pesticides in agriculture. That in the U.S. chemicals in products don't have to be tested before they are put on the market for humans. That basically everything is full of shit you don't want in or on your body.
But you know what, I don't tell you that. I leave it the hell alone. I don't want to make you care, because I care, and I'll do what I think is right when I can and am happy to discuss things, but not to argue. Because people can believe what they want. And if ignorance is bliss for you, that's just fine. I just want to be left alone. I just want to be left alone, eat what I want without being hassled, and believe in what I want without being hassled.
I need to start brushing up on my current events and stay on top of things so I can kick ass in conversations. It also makes me want to go back to school a little bit, and get better, more knowledgeable. Only because I know my personality isn't good at independent study.
And sometimes I just want to leave and start new, so people will leave me alone. Maybe if I go live in a hippie commune I will be able to live in peace. It'd be nice to be immersed with some people who are way more radical than I am. lol. Because believe me, I do so little compared to what I wish I could do, or what things I should just be doing better, and I'm tired of being treated like an ignorant hippie for the so little things I do do. I like to joke around about being a hippie, and I like hippies, but I don't like the stereotype negative people use it as. I could and should be doing so much more. I might joke about being a hippie, but I'm educated.
I'm just tired of people with negative, all-or-nothing, or just general asshole-attitudes.
(For example, "For every animal you don't eat, I'll eat two." That actually really pisses me off. Because I never did anything to anybody, never said a goddamn word about other people eating meat, and here I am trying to make a difference in my own personal way, and there's someone saying, "Fuck you, I'm going to ruin this for you.")
It doesn't have to be all or nothing all the time. Just do what you can, if you want to, don't get defeated if it's not something you can do all the time. You can make a difference without being vegetarian by eating meals without meat a couple times a week, or recycling a little bit more diligently sometimes, or sometimes walking instead of driving. It doesn't have to always be one extreme or another.
I'm frustrated. I should stop now.